Salam untuk Semua

Asalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera untuk semua. Thousand apologies for the "silence" and the long break that I have to take. I guess it is nearly 2 months since my last posting and almost 6 months since Hafiz left me. I wanted to post something during his birthday, 24th June 2009 but not able to do so. Seems to be losing my strength during that day...and I waited until today.....

24th June 2002, I gave birth to Hafiz at SJMC. I can still remember watching TV while waiting for the gynae and counting the intervals of my labour pain. The Azan for Dzuhur prayer was on tv and I knew the time has come....and Alhamdulilah seconds after azan was over I could hear his first cry....

Subhanallah, my son (I lost my first son 1998) was born...the first grandson in the family....Syukur ke hadrat Illahi. Only Allah knows how happy we were at that time and still are thankful with the gift from Mighty Allah. We named him Mohamed Hafizuddin b. M. Hafifi. A beautiful baby...he will always be my baby....

His first step....after the 2nd heart operation.

My Baby.......

Everybody's baby.....

Hafiz, mama ucapkan selamat menyambut hari ulang tahun mu yang ke 7. Mama tahu Hafiz tentu sedang bergembira di sana. Walaupun Hafiz tiada bersama mama, mama tetap sayang dan rindu pada Hafiz. Mama ingat lagi setiap kali menjelang bulan Jun, Hafiz dah mula fikir2 untuk order cake yang macam mana dan hadiah apa yang Hafiz hendak. Sebulan dua tu kita semua sibuk sekali mencari2 hadiah yang sesuai untuk Hafiz. And your last birthday gift was a bicycle that you wanted so much....and we celebrated your 6th birthday last year, not knowing that this year you will not be around with us anymore....



Ampunkan daku Ya Robbana, Ampunkan dosa-dosa ku Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim, Maafkan tangisan2 ku Ya Allah. Bukan aku kesali kematian Hafiz, jauhkah sekali ku tangisi pemergiannya, tidak juga ku marah di duga begini...Aku cuma insan hina, yang kerdil, yang jahil dan tidak punya apa2 kecuali apa yang KAU berikan kepada ku. Ampunkan dosa-dosa ku Ya Mujib yang Maha Mengabulkan.

Izinkan aku untuk menyayangi anakku, izinkan aku merinduinya, izinkan mengingatinya...Kau yang Maha Mengetahui, Al Alim. Kasih sayang seorang ibu..tidak kan pernah hilang..Kau jugalah yang memasukan kasih sayang itu kedalam diriku Ya Allah.

Ya Allah, kau gantikanlah rindu dan kasih sayang ku kepada anak ku ini dengan rindu dan kasih sayang yang sepenuhnya kepada mu Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim.....Amin.