Thursday, February 4, 2010

Lonely....alone at home

Feeling down and lonely today. Yesterday and today, I started to clear things that have been piling up in the room downstairs. Bills to be settled, letters to be sorted out and filed accordingly. Can you believe that I have not been doing all these since a year ago. I opened letters, read them, pay bills and chuck everything into this very big box. Suddenly I realised the box is already full. So....today is sorting out day.



Anis went out with her friends, Aqilah busy preparing her presentation, Ira is in Johor, Nadhilah is at school...so I am all alone. Okay....here I go.....this letter for this file, this document in that file........Ya Allah, guess what I found...a stack of hospital bills, doctor's report, Hafiz's birth and death certificates.



SubhanAllah, without realising, menitis-nitis air mata. Terkenang arwah again...and again...and again. I miss you Hafiz, I love you so much and will always love you, selagi di izinkan Allah. Mama sentiasa berdoa agar kita semua akan di kumpulkan di Jannah Allah. Amin. Amin.

Damailah dua-dua anak lelaki mama di syurga yang kekal abadi.